therapy

scrapping this picture was therapeutic. I was not happy with Hailee cutting her hair and was in denial as to how she looks. But seeing how happy she is with it - and seeing her in this picture made me change my outlook.

yes, she now looks more like an 8 year old. I think that was part of my problem. I can't handle my kids growing up! and this one...whew...she's a handful and I know it's going to be even more challenging as she gets older....the reason? we're too alike! she's got her dad's problem with hoarding everything - but she hoards the same things I do - but she doesn't organize so it drives me nuts. I find myself telling her "you don't need more pens" as I'm sneaking them into a shopping cart for myself! I am trying to deal with her turning into a young girl instead of staying a little girl. It's not easy. I don't accept change very easily! lol I thought I did but have been told otherwise. and I'm losing control! control of her! she is having to make her own decisions. make her own mistakes. learn from them. I want to protect her from all of it but I know I can't. I always catch myself wondering how my mom survived because I keep myself up so many nights worrying about my kids. that can't be healthy!

so - I decided to scrap this page with a positive outlook - make it a good thing! for her as well as myself. there's still a small part of me deep inside hoping she hates her hair and decides to grow it back out - but if not I'll accept the shorter hair, the bigger girl, the happier girl, and go on my way to watching her grow and mature. but remember - she's only 8 and she's only getting so much control! she is NOT ready to grow up all the way yet!!!! :)

{kraft cardstock; sassafras paper; American crafts letters; taylored expressions stamps; heidi swapp heart; various buttons; papertrey ink twine}